Vlogging is fun. It really is. It’s fun, but it is also time consuming and requires a lot of energy. It also requires having something to say, which I usually don’t. I mean, I do think a lot and there’s always a plethora of somethings going on in my head, but half of them I can’t express and the other half aren’t all that interesting.
I’m excited for my friends who are participating in VEDA this year. I participated two years ago, I think. Yes, two years ago. It’s 2012, right? It is. I had to check (again?). So I participated two years ago, and it was wicked fun. It was also kind of stressful, because I’m not a very photogenic person and I’m also a wee bit of a perfectionist. So, if I film myself and then don’t like how I look I will scrap the whole thing and start again. Hence why in at least one of my videos* from two years ago I was hidden inside a hoodie. Pretty sure I had started to vlog and then thought better of my appearance, threw on something to cover my unshowered grossness, and began filming again.
Great, so now I’m sad that I decided not to do VEDA this year. I guess I have a couple more hours to figure out if I’m going to stick to that decision, or if I’m going to cave and make a video. Didn’t I already mention today that I’m bad at making decisions?!! Also what if I don’t do it right? What if no one likes my videos? What if I don’t have time to watch everyone’s videos, does that make me a bad participant? Also what is the point? And does the world really need another low-self-esteem n00b making videos? Because pretty much that’s what I’d be.
I guess that’s my dilemma for the day. To VEDA, or not to VEDA? Because I want to, but I also don’t want to. Which part of me will win?
* A video in which you can hardly hear me and the video doesn’t match the sound because the webcam was le suck.