I’ve been MIA on the internet (not just here) for somewhere in the vicinity of two months now. I’ve been spending the majority of my time drawing and watching television (OMG season finales of Bones and Castle WTF) and playing PlayStation games. I’ve also been spending time with my siblings and my husband. I find these activities preferable to Facebook and The Internet and even LotRO these days.
Drawing. I’ve been drawing new things, silhouette type drawings, and posting them to my Instagram feed. I really like them, and I’m pleasantly surprised to find that other people like them as well. This summer I’m going to be setting up an Etsy shop to see if they will sell (if I can ever get it figured out), because some of my friends have expressed interest in my doing so. I love drawing and doodling. When I create something I like, I feel so proud of myself – even if others don’t like it. I haven’t given up on stick figures, I could never do that, but I’ve graduated to other kinds of things. It feels good to be proud of myself. It feels amazing to create. I just want to feel good and amazing and proud all of the time.
Games. I’ve basically just been playing two games. Star Ocean Second Story and Star Ocean The Last Hope. I could play these forever. I’ve never beaten either, and my goal this summer is to beat them both. I have this bad habit of not beating games, just getting to a certain point and starting over, because I’m afraid that if I beat them I won’t ever want to play them again. I’m going to test this theory out with the one game I have seriously avoided beating for years now: Star Ocean Second Story (basically the best console game ever). I’ve played it more than two dozen times, and just stopped when I was getting too close to the end. That sounds kind of crazy, I guess, if you’re not me. But it doesn’t sound crazy to me at all.
Reading. I’ve reread a lot of books so far this year. I’ve been going back and forth between all of the Sarah Dessen books I own, and the Sword of Truth series by Terry Goodkind. Earlier in the year I reread the Sevenwaters books by Juliet Marillier (my favorite stories in the whole world) and the Symphony of the Ages trilogy by Elizabeth Haydon. All great. Reading is the most fun thing in the whole world. It is more fun than eating, and eating is basically at the top of my list of favorites. I don’t know how many books I’ve read this year, but certainly more than one a week. I finish a book? I pick up another one the next day. Usually I have to let what I’ve read digest, and then try to get past the depressing feeling that it’s over before beginning a new journey (even if it’s one I’ve read before).
Other things. I’ve been watching Frozen. A lot. It is my new favorite Disney movie. My favorite Disney movies my whole life have been Sleeping Beauty and The Little Mermaid. My whole life, people. Frozen is amazing. It’s about sisters. WHAT COULD BE BETTER THAN SISTERS?! I think it’s the best animated movie Disney has come out with since Finding Nemo in 2003 Also I go to this little place downtown called Get Fired Up just about every week, where they have pottery you can paint. I paint all the things. Being creative is my new favorite thing to do all day long. And listen to the Frozen soundtrack while I’m doing it.
I turned 31 last weekend, and had a really great birthday. My dad and I went to the Mohegan Sun casino and I lost a bunch of money and ate really good food. I’m not one of those people who is upset about getting older. I never have been. My birthday is a great source of excitement for me every year. I look forward to it, count the days (357 days to go!), and just really enjoy my birthday. I feel better about myself as I get older. I’m less worried about what others think of me, and more focused on how I feel about who I am. I’m a good person. I even like myself the majority of the time. I don’t feel old. I’m not one of those people who says “I feel so old!” or “OMG I’m like so old!” Because I’m not. I’m 31, not 81. Honestly. I feel so much better than I did ten years ago in every aspect of my life. Sure, I can’t do some things as well as I used to be able to do, but there are other things that I can do now that I wasn’t able to do before. Like make good decisions, practice actual common sense, and basically just be happy. Those things are way more important than being able to jump over a fence or eat all the food (but let’s face it, eating all the food is still awesome). I’m a big girl now. I like it.